Since I've been loving you

I just need to know. Why is it that guys, including ex boyfriends, good friends, and guys I wanted to date, all like to IM me and tell me about their current girlfriends, how much they are in love with them, and how good their sex life is. I really just don't get it. This has happened to me WAY too many times. Haha. I swearrr. They're lucky I'm so nice.

I just want to wake up in someone else's arms.

I'm crazy. I just got my lip pierced, and I have about 2 days for it to heal.
This should be fun.

Well, I haven't updated in a LONG time. And I've got a ton of time to kill right now, so why not.

Life is going really well right now. I'm SO busy between work and classes, but I kind of like it that way. I'm doing a ton better this semester than I was last semester. Now mind you, I'm not getting A's in everything or anything, but I'm managing at least a B in most of them. I've been working about 6 shifts a week lately, but I really haven't minded it at all. I don't mind working as much as I used to. Plus, I really need all the money I can get for the apartment. Speaking of which...

I don't know if I mentioned this or not, but Geeg and I got an apartment! [I know most of you already know this.] It's small, but we both love it, and we're SO excited about moving in. We move in June 1st. I've already gotten a lot of things we need for it, but the main things left are the pots and pans, a bed[pretty important. hah], coffee table, that's pretty much the main stuff. That's really exciting that we've gotten a lot of stuff out of the way! :] But yeah, I'll be living in Oswego over the summer, but it really works out for me. I'll be literally right next to work, and I'll be right by the lake all summer so I can go to the beach any time I want. :] It's gonna be awesome! I'm sooo excited. I just wish June would get here.

My brother moved out to Seattle. I haven't talked to him since he left, but my parents have and I'm pretty sure he's doing ok. Ya know, my whole extended family has a problem with his whole marriage situation and all, and moving across the country for a job you don't even know will work out, and in some ways I feel the same way. But I have faith in my brother. And honestly, I really hope everything works out [almost] just as good as he explained it to. I want him to prove everyone wrong. I really do.

I haven't seen Mike in...over a week? And I don't think I will any time soon. But this is good. He was in a bad situation, and now he's getting his life in order, and I just don't want to get in the way of all that. But we're doing really well. I still talk to him usually at least once a day, even if it's just a little bit, and just knowing he's trying so hard to set a foundation for himself makes me happier than anything else. I may miss him now, but I know this will pay off later on. And I know he's 100% all for me, and knowing that makes things 100% easier.

Ok, it is beautiful out. It's supposed to be almost 70 today, and I guarantee you I will be spending almost all of it outside after I get out of work. Have a wonderful day!

Update time!
I dropped my Calc. 2 class.  I really thought about it beforehand and talked to my mom about it, and we decided it was the best thing to do. My professor was just IMPOSSIBLE. He was Indian, and was SO hard to understand, and then half of his quiz questions were things I had never seen before. And I wasn't the only one that thought that. Other students would go up to him and tell him they didn't understand the quiz material, and all he'd say was "You should know how to do this." Blah. So yeah, I dropped it. I'm thinking I'll take it over the summer at OCC. It's really nice not having it anymore, because I don't have any classes at all on Fridays. So Fridays=sleep in days. :]

Work's going good. I'm making good money. Why a million people want to go out when the weather's this crappy is beyond me. But whatever.

Mike's in Minnesota for this week, and I hadn't heard from him in a week. But I got a message from him yesterday and it was SO exciting. Hah. I'm so happy to hear from him. I'm glad he misses me too. :]

This weekend is the Brand New concert. It's going to be amazing to say the least. I have so many people going with me including Geeg, Lacy, this girl Cara I work with, Emily!, my little brother, and my two cousins. I'm SO excited. You really have no idea. It's going to be amazing. And Yes. Jesse Lacey will jump on me once again.

K, that's all. Bye!

This really isn't going to be an interesting entry, just so ya know.

I've been sick for about 2-3 weeks now. It SUCKS. I'm so sick of it. And the symptoms have been all over the place. I had a wicked bad cold a couple weeks ago and then it left and then it came back again, and then I had a fever, and sore throat, and headache and whatnot. It's just really annoying. I finally went to the health center and got some antibiotics so that hopefully this will be gone soon.

I wish I had something really interesting to write about, but I'm seriously lacking anything interesting in my life right now. Everything is pretty routine. School. Work. Homework. Ya know.

I have way too much reading to do for Death and Dying. I swear, I'm the biggest slacker when it comes to reading. I just CAN'T do it. It's so boring.

This entry is so boring, that I can't write in it anymore. Bye!

So work yesterday. I couldn't have had a better schedule. I opened in the morning, and there was only one other waitress on all day other than me. However, for the first hour I was on my own. I told God that I didn't care how many freaking people walked in that door, I needed money, and I needed it now. The weather worried me though. Well, He listened to me. Hah. The first hour I got more people than I've really ever seen come in that early in the day. I'd say in the first hour I had around 15 tables. I was running around like a chicken with my head cut off, but I've never gotten so many positive comment cards in my life so I must have been doing something right. So I had a nice hour long break, I ate lunch, relaxed, then did it all over again from 3:30-7:30.
$150. That's sweet for a double. I'm totally stoked. I can't wait to put the money in the bankzorz. I think I'll be doing that today.
On the negative side, last night, I don't think my legs have ever hurt so much in my entire life. I was seriously wallowing in pain. My poor mother. But it was nice. We spent the night together watching The Housewives of Orange County and some presidential stuff on CSPAN. Housewives were good, but the presidential stuff sometimes makes me want to throw up. Especially when Romney and his big eyebrows came on the screen.
I'm sorry, I just always notice eyebrows, and I hate his. So I'm not a big fan of him.
Sooo work tonight, then I don't know, I'd really like to see Mike. We'll see what happens.

Today has been The.Worst.Day.Ever.
I woke up and called Nobles, the car place in town, to set up an appointment to get my brakes checked out cuz I knew the break pads were dead. I figured it would be an easy, quick fix. Hah.
They called me an hour later and told me there was a little trouble with the roters or something, and it was going to be around $350. I was soooo annoyed, but whatever. He said it would be done by the end of the day.
He called me back an hour later.
There was more wrong. We're looking at $550-$600.
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All I have is a debit card and I just picked up the stupid thing. $562 out of my bank account. In a matter of one minute.
I'm about to kill someone.
What makes me even more mad, all that was wrong was the brakes, and I barely felt a huge difference on the ride home. OMG!Q@%#@$# I'm so annoyed. And I'm going away this weekend to PA to visit my aunt. I've been looking forward to this trip for a month. I've been looking forward to going to the King Of Prussia mall SO MUCH and finally having some money saved to spend, and now I pretty much lost all that money.
Now trying to look at the positive side: Luckily I'm working a double tomorrow, and Wednesday and Thursday night, so hopefully I can make a chunk of money for the weekend. People better tip me freaking good this week. If I get stiffed, I seriously am going to FREAK OUT. Fake smiles to the maxzorz for me.

I need a frap.
Or a beer.
We'll go with the frap.

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Take that, Mandy!

Blah. I don't want to go back to school. The mere thought of having tons of work again makes my stomach churn. Last semester was so much work, I don't want to do it all over!!#%!@ Ya know, I hate thinking about how sometimes it seems like the purpose in our life is to be successful. Like that's what we need to do in our lives. Not having a job is just out of the question. We need to somehow make money to even survive in this world. I hate that the world's like that. That it's all about money and greed. I know there's more to life than just that, but without having some form of success, you either a) Don't survive or b) Are looked very poorly upon for being so lazy to not want to work. I mean honestly, I'm paying $80,000 to go school, to go to classes that I hate going to, and I'm only going to them to become successful in life. I really hope being a teacher pays off for all of this. Maybe once I start taking my actual teaching blocks I'll feel like I'm getting somewhere.

I have the next 2 days off from work, thank God. I've been so tired, and in major need of a break. Ponderosa just put out "buy a buffet get a free steak" coupons, so we've been completely swamped the past 2 days. Not only that but everyone's getting their welfare and social security checks for the first of the month. Woohoooo. The other night I had this big family come in. [Aside: Geeg, you know them. They were the depressing family that was at Monro when we took my car in to get it's oil changed.] It was two adults and they had 5 kids. Well it was wicked busy, so I was running around, and they sat in my section and I took care of them and all. Man, that family can eat. Geez. I got them drinks, and took plates left and right, and brought meals out, and then they finally left and didn't leave me a tip. It was the first time I thought to myself "They probably need that more than I do." Maybe I'll try to think that the next time tons of people leave me stiff. It's hard to be optimistic, but I'll try.

Sooo I Love New York Reunion show tonight. I'm totally stoked. I've been looking forward to this for weeks. Sadly, I think they're still together. How could you break up with a guy that will do anything for you. Literally. Even if that means getting a penis implant.

My Christmas was pretty much awesome. On Christmas Eve the whole family came over here for festivities. The only bad part of the night was the dog, and once we put her upstairs, everything was good. :] I got a couple new clothing things, some jewelry, and some really nice make up from Sephora. And this cool perfume kit from there where you get 10 different samples of perfume, and I get to try them all, and then I pick out the one I like the best and I mail my slip in and I get a whole bottle of it. I'm really excited cuz I wanted perfume really bad. :] Then on Christmas morning my mom spoiled me with a little Micheal Kors purse which I realllyyy wanted, and some clothes, makeup, jewelry, and most importantly Rock Band which is amazing. I also got the second season of Project Runway which I look forward to watching. And then Mike's family gave me presents too. I got a cute cross necklace from his mom, perfume and truffles from his dad and step mom, and $10 from his grandma and grandpa. I'm gonna smell pretty good these next few months! =P

But yeah, all I've done all break so far is go to work, hang out at home, play guitar hero, and the occasional mall trip. I think I'm gonna take a trip to Philadelphia to visit my aunt the 18th-21st. Not only do I miss her, but that King of Prussia mall is AMAZING. [Mandy, you are far too spoiled to go to school right near there!] I hope to get lots of new clothes with my Christmas/birthday money which btw my birthday is JANUARY 18TH. :D I'm gonna be 20. Old. But yeah...I miss you guys! [Especially you, Geeg. When are we frapping?!] Please don't hesitate to get at me if you're doing anything and you want company. I'm just really bad at making plans with people because I work so much and I never know if anyone would want to hang out with me. lol But if you do, let me know!

Mk, I gotta go. I have a hot date tonight with the bee eff. He's taking me out to dinner/movie. :] Cliche, I know, but we never get to go on dates, and now he's working for his dad all the time and has more money than I do. lol So I'm excited. Byess.

Yeah. My house is a little crazy right now. So, my older brother has been dating this girl Mary for about 8 months now, and she lived with us for 5 months. She's nice, but a little...I don't know. Weird. I feel like she lies about so many things, and that she's hiding things from us. There's just something I don't like about her. I feel so bad about saying all this, so God forgive me. I feel like I should like her because my brother likes her so much. Well, ANYWAYS. She moved out a month ago. She lives in Seattle, Washington. And my brother has decided he's going to move down there with her to live with her family and work for her father...on a fairie...making 50,000 a year. It just sounds like such a scam to me.  Well, I heard he and Mary talking on the phone the other night [no I wasn't evesdropping, my brother screams when he talks to anyone] and I could tell Mary was trying to convince him to propose to her. I kind of looked past it, but then the next day, [yesterday] he comes home with a ring. He's going to ask her to marry him. And he told us that Mary's dad told her that if John's going to move over there, he better be proposing to her sometime soon.

This is all so complicated. Ok. My family [extended] is very old fashioned. They have an idea of what they want for our family in their life. You graduate from high school, go to college, graduate from college, get a succesful job, get married LATER in life. It's a lot of pressure, so I know how my brother feels. You can tell he's afraid of what the family will think. I mean, when I started dating Mike, I was scared of what my family would think of me bringing him home. When my brother said to my grandma a year ago "Katie's boyfriend has tattoos, gauges, piercings and wants to be a tattoo artist," my grandma said flat out to me "That doesn't sound like a good thing to me." They do like him now, but my family does put a lot of pressure on us to live a "successful" life. But this whole marriage thing for him, I just don't feel it's right. Not right now anyways. After living with us for 5 months, we realized how what Mary wants is to have kids. She wants babies. Now. My brother even asked my mom what she would think if they got married in Vegas. But I just don't think John is ready to be a dad. I don't think he knows what he's getting into. This is so crazy to me. He's only 21. There's no need to rush into getting married. Especially with someone you've only dated for 8 months. And I feel this is all out of pressure from her dad and her, and I just don't think that's the way to make a decision like that.

Wow. LOL. I feel like this is the biggest waste of a day. I've spent all day sitting around, watching Top Chef. I feel so lazy. I hate it. Please tell me that some of you have lazy days every once in a while so I don't feel so lazy.

This is such a pathetic entry, but I'm in the mood to be pathetic.
Well first of all, the season finale of I Love New York was on tonight, and I am so mad at her. How could she pick Tailor Made? He's weak, ugly, dumb, has no personality, and reminds me of my brother. Buddha was so much better for her than him! I'm so mad. I seriously can't stop thinking about it. I know you guys think I'm dumb, but this show meant a lot to me. Rah.
Now for more whining. I haven't talked to Mike in like 3 days. He's working a lot to move into this new apartment, so from 7-5 he works Mon-Fri, and then I work at night, and then to top it all off, there's something wrong with his house phone and cable and internet. It's all a package, and it isn't working right now. So I can't call him, I can't talk to him online. It's so frustrating! I know it's not his fault he doesn't have a phone, and he can't call me while he's working, but I miss my boy. =[
I feel like ripping my hair out right now. Half because I'm so flustered and half because of how pathetic this entry was. Sorry girls.

So after doing work almost every freaking second, I am finally done with the semester. It's been...a mess. Haha. But if things went the way I'm hoping they did, I'll get at least a C- in my math classes. And that's all I need. C- ppppleeasee.

I think I'm going home tomorrow, and I guess I'm excited about it. It's more that I'm excited the semester's over. But it should be fun nonetheless. I better be seeing you girls a few times in the next month!

This week should be fun. I'm closing tonight but then I'm off until Saturday. Mike and I's 1 year is Thursday. [it's exciting for me!#%@#$] I don't know if we'll really be doing much 'cuz he's saving his money for his new apartment and school, but we are exchanging presents. I got him cute stuff! I think. I hope he got me something cute too. =] He keeps telling me how good they are, and Geeg said it's good too, so I'll trust them. [I'm not materialistic, I swear!] We're seeing Brand New and Thrice on Friday. It's pretty much awesome cuz Brand New is one of my favorite bands, and Thrice is his, so it was so perfect! I can't wait. I loovvveee Brand New. I hope Jesse Lacey jumps on me again. ;]

That's all for now. I can't wait to see all of you! =]

    So school's been a drag to say the least, and all I have to say is don't become a math major or concentrate or ANYTHING or you will want to kill yourself. I've been doing beyond poorly in both my math classes, but I'm so happy because I just got an 87 on my math exam in my discrete math class. I studied for freaking 3 hours so I better do good!#@%# But yeah, I was sooo happy about that. And then today in English, I got my paper back, and I got an A- on it. I think seriously all you need is a couple good grades to really encourage you to do better. It's working for me. I'm pretty happy about that. :]

    Geeg, Mike and I went and saw Underoath last night. They played with Every Time I Die, Maylene and the Sons of Disaster and Poison the Well. None of which I've heard before. I was kind of bummed because I really wanted to get all hXc'd out. But thanks to a lack of bandana or black hair, I wasn't really rockin' it. But Geeg and I both knew we were hXc on the inside. Basically Underoath was last to play, and everyone before them played foorreevverrr. Underoath didn't even go on until 10 and the show started at 7. Underoath was tres bon, though. Je leur adore. I hope that made sense. lol Afterwards we hit up Denny's cuz I was pretty much famished to say the least. So they have these $3.99 late night deals, so I got a burger and fries. My burger was literally thinner than a McD's burger. lol But yeah. We hit the road at about midnight, 2 and a half hour drive home. My eyes were literally rolling to the back of my head. I was pretty much scared for all of our lives considering I was about to pass out. Mike was passed out already[Men.] and thank the Lord, Geeg said she'd drive. I know it was technically illegal, but hey, I like to live dangerously. Or something. So she drove home. And we didn't die. The end.